Toothless Hot Mess to Owning My Shit

Allow Me To Introduce Myself

I'm Hannah, a firm believer in the power of self-love. Join me on this journey as we navigate how to develop self-worth and find a life worth living! I find immense joy in embarking on new adventures. I am a fire sign, after all! However, amidst the plethora of exhilarating escapades, one journey holds a special place in my heart - exploring the mysterious depths of the human experience. Each lesson we encounter in our earthly journey is a stepping stone toward discovering our higher purpose. 

The darkness, for me, came in the form of shame. It felt like I was trapped in a never-ending maze, each twist and turn a reminder of my choices. It was as if I believed I deserved to carry the weight of my past mistakes like a heavy rucksack I could never take off. The echoes of my past actions were like shadows that clung to me, refusing to let go, and I couldn't help but think that this was the karma I had to carry with me for the rest of my life. I tried everything to push my emotions to the back of my mind, but nothing seemed to budge the suffocating weight on my chest. I breathed again when I regained my power (oh, and started Lexapro!). 

Starting Point

Life can be a whirlwind of unexpected twists and turns; sometimes, it feels like the universe has a cruel sense of timing. Imagine navigating a brand new state, far away from loved ones, and experiencing a monumental career shift out of the military. Just as you begin to adjust to this new chapter, tragedy strikes with the loss of your beloved mother to breast cancer. The weight of solitude and grief becomes overwhelming. And if that wasn't enough, your relationship with your boyfriend turns into a nightmare, filled with anguish and distress. Amid all this change and heartache, you grapple with dark thoughts. But there is hope. 

Turning Point

Two years ago, I made the courageous decision to leave a three-year toxic relationship and seek therapy. I didn't know what would happen, but marrying this individual made me want to throw up. My anxiety had reached an all-time high, and I spent as much time traveling for work as I could so that I didn't have to be home. I planned my escape, and with the help of my friend and her dad's minivan, I got the hell out of there! The weeks after that point were rough. I was lost, alone, and drinking to forget my problems. 

A series of unfortunate events happened after that, including a scooter accident where I ended up breaking my right elbow and maxilla bone, stitches in my left hand, and losing four of my front teeth. Yes, you read that right - quite the ordeal, I must say. As if that wasn't enough, I contracted covid, moved into my cousin's house, and found myself diving headfirst into yet another toxic relationship only one month later. When I finally had enough after 15 months, I started to get serious about making changes in my life.

Transformation

I picked up as many self-help books as I could. With a little (well, a lot) of trial and error, I finally started to get my shit together (I can just hear my therapist saying, “Hannah, be kind to yourself!). This began a journey toward self-discovery, healing, and personal growth. Despite the challenges, I have discovered one key theme - personal accountability. You are the only one who can control your circumstances. You are responsible for who you allow into your life, what boundaries you enforce, where you live, what job you hold, etc. You have the power, and nobody can take that away from you. 

Hannah’s Offer

 I am ready to support you through the ups and downs of your healing journey, provide resources to nurture your inner child, break unhealthy karmic patterns, and start a love affair with yourself. Life is a series of lessons; each lesson has a robust growth opportunity. I’ve learned that I am not the victim in my own story. I hold the power to create and manifest my best life, and you can, too! Life is not a linear process, and the beauty of it is that you have the free will to create whatever the fuck you want. You’ll find me grappling with personal and professional relationships, dating, childhood trauma, personal growth and empowerment, and spiritual exploration, celebrating small victories like controlling my emotions, fixing my teeth, and shedding a few tears (and my butt crack - oh yes, there is more to come!) along the way. 

If you are emotionally spiraling uncontrollably, wondering if there's another way, grab my hand, and let's claim your power back. This is a safe space for messy realities, honest reflections, and the unwavering belief that we can all find our way back to the light. Welcome to the adventure!